Broken Light

Today, for my final installation media project I took a light bulb and smashed it against a plinth. The light bulb was surprisingly strong and it took a while to break, and by that I mean the bulb actually broke the wood before it broke.
When it broke it cut my hand (not bad at all) and exploded onto the audience, I had no idea this was going to happen and I feel stupid because my teacher completely reamed me out about it and how I put my entire class in danger.

Fuck.

My favorite word apparently.

T minus

So this is the week I go into that tent for five days.
I'm getting really nervous. I've never spent that much time in one space and I'm starting to think I may not be able to.
All I'll have is a pen and paper- no books, no computer, no fucking entertainment at all.

And yet I still don't know why I'm going to do it.
I don't know it's purpose.

Confusing.

Oh yeah, later on if I'm bored I'll post some Iqaluit stuff.. where this project spawned from!

A need to create.

The paradox that I'm experiencing at this point in my life may or may not have to do with the lack of physical creation I have done lately.

I feel as if, actually, I know that film will not push me, cannot push me any further than it already has. Which is a lot, but... but, I need to feel more. Feel more, with my hands, touch more- I need to create physical art.

The digital medium is killing this for me, even this blog isn't physical enough. I need more dimensions. I need an object.

Tomorrow I will create a viewing centre for my under the train piece. I will draw the plans tonight.

I want to touch art.

Cabin Fever

I'm starting to get nervous about my performance/installation final- I don't know how I'm going to do it, stay isolated for that amount of time, furthermore I don't know what I'm trying to say and that really bothers me.

I just can't seem to think about any other than school yet, I feel as if I am accomplishing nothing that has to do with school.

The Cremaster Cycle

Today from 4pm to 11pm the Pacific Cinematheque played The Cremaster Cycle. It was one of the most incredible film going experiences I've had. Lot's of people were falling asleep, but I couldn't shut my brain down- so amazing. I wish the DVD's weren't one hundred thousand dollars (I'm serious)

I'm pretty tired now, maybe I'll write more about it tomorrow.

Gotta set my alarm so I can register for the Wood Sculpture class!! It opens up to students who aren't majoring in Sculpture tomorrow and there's only one spot left in the class! I want it so bad. 7:30am, I'll be clicking the Register button!

http://www.cinematheque.bc.ca/matthew-barney’s-cremaster-cycle

FRIDAY THE 13TH

Hell yeah.

School School School

I love school.
I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

I love school.

I hate school.

This is how I've always felt.

Always.

I hate it, and I love it.

Without it I feel like I'm not progressing enough (this is my own fault, people can do fine without school).

With it, I feel like it holds me back.

I'm in a constant state of purgatory when it comes to school.

Emily Carr University in half an hour I'll leave my house and come to you, you are a prison. You set me free.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Nothing.

Oh man, it's that end of year fever, I've got it again.

Or is that H1N1?

My mom has it, my dad has it, my step mom has it, and my little sister has it.

I live on the other side of the country though so I'm not worried about catching it from them.... Although I did spend four days in close contact with my mom while she was sick with it and we didn't know.

UH OH!

I feel fine though, unless going mad is a part of it.

New York

New York, as always was amazing.

Highlights include.

-Seeing Tegan and Sara twice in a row with my friends band... I'm fairly certain that she's actually better than them, but I said that to a superfan at the venue and well apparently that's blasphemy.

-Got a drinking in public ticket the first night I was there, I'm told this ticket is very easy to get out of and if I can't is only $25...

- Got to go to a courthouse in NYC! Total deja vu feeling only because I've watched so much Law & Order.

-Dustin's past and more recent past lover got in a fist fight resulting in black eyes and broken nails on Halloween night.

-I got to wear my amazing costume and also gave away 40's to anyone being awesome... evidently I get really social when the entire city's in costume.

-Tara came down, that's a highlight- not necessarily a good thing though.

In true Sammie fashion I just avoided missing my flight- if I had checked luggage I would not have made it... note to self, always travel with carry-on sized bags... Ps. The travel sized guitar I bought made it's first plane trip when I flew from Seattle! I'm so stoked it made it into carry-on, I was nervous.

I will update about why I was only on the west coast for twenty-four hours before flying back East to Toronto later on, right now I need to write a project proposal!

Last photo: Once I landed in SEA I still needed to get back to Vancouver for my 8:30am class.

Seattle

I went to Seattle on Oct 29th and wrote a blog entry as my bus came and didn't have time to post it.

Basically what had happened was I decided that I wanted to go to New York for Halloween so I caught the Greyhound from Vancouver to Seattle, then caught a flight from SEA to JFK the next morning. Since buses from Van to Seattle don't go late at night I had to catch the 18:30 that gone in around 22:00-30 and lurk around the city then once I discovered enough for my liking just went to the airport and slept.

Right before the bus I remembered they sell beer everywhere in the states and decided to take advantage of this. This 24oz can cost me a toonie!... er, I mean... two, one dollar bills.

On the bus from downtown Seattle to the airport (which is actually in Tacoma which I learnt was a different city) I met this guy, I forget his name now but he added me on facebook, he's a jesus freak- it was interesting talking to him.

"Sorry I'm talking so much, I'm just really excited- I just went to Benny Hinn!"

Nice guy though. I really hope life works out how he wants it to. I'm glad he wasn't going to the airport though, I think the time I spent with him on the bus ride was just enough.

I'm into my twenties.

I had a blog called "TWO DECADES".... now I guess I'll have to create one called thefirstthree.... hmm, not as appealing, I'll stick with SAMMIE SURNAME... or something.

Well. I'm in Vancouver, have been for two months now. Got here Aug 26th, it was warm and sunny and I thought "hey this place is awesome!", now it's cold and wet and I'm fleeing to New York City for the weekend to check out my friend Katie's band. Last time I got out of this city it was late September and they were driving through so I decided to go to Portland with them, then just hungout all they way till the end of their tour in L.A. It will be nice to get out of Vancouver again, it's kind of silly that it's to hangout with them again.

I'm also really stoked to get to hangout with Dustin, he's the best ever. We're gonna tear it up. PLUS it's gonna be Halloween! Stoked!

All I have to do is get to Seattle, and I can go.

Right now it's time to head out into the dark, cold, rainy, beautiful night and watch some animation. NFB4LYFE.

of course

Every summer, I feel the need to start a blog, so now I have four blogs on one account. Great.


I have two days left to make up my mind as to whether or not I go to Emily Carr in September...